Not important

This particular post won't be a "rib tickler" as Nick says, but I feel it's necessary just the same. I have a problem. I'm not sure exactly how long it's been going on. I want to say a few months, but if I'm being honest I would have to say it's been developing longer than that. I seem to have developed a superiority complex.

I have always despised arrogance, and people with cliques that think they're better than everyone else. But, because of my extreme dislike of those things, I have inadvertently become the same way. If I feel mistreated by an individual or a group, I immediately tell myself that they're horrible people, and I'm so much better than them and they don't deserve me. But is that true? I've been going to a private school for the past 3 years and haven't been invited to one party yet. I tell myself I don't want to be, and that I have better things to do. But do I really? I tell myself I'm more clever, better looking, and more democratic than those elitists. But by hating them for how I feel that they've mistreated me, I've become the thing that I despised. I get on my soapbox about teenagers acting foolish and being loud and obnoxious, and what I considered their insipid little "inside jokes", but is my group of friends any better than theirs? Do our inside jokes contribute any more to society than theirs do? Nope.

I hate admitting this, but I think I may be a snob. I don't know the people well that I consider myself better than. I don't know what their family is like, or what their insecurities may be, or what they deal with everyday. My beliefs, interests, friends, hobbies, musical taste, etc. are not better than anyone else's just because they're mine, as much as I might like to think so. I may consider Pete Seeger superior to Rihanna or John Irving superior to Danielle Steele, but that doesn't necessarily make it true.

I'm not saying it's going to happen overnight, but I'm going to try to be more open minded and less judgemental.