As winter approaches, I find myself asking the eternal question: Without a North Face fleece jacket and Ugg boots will I ever lead a happy, healthy, warm, content life?
The answer to this is no, of course. What a stupid question.

I feel like I remember someone telling me college was supposed to be really hard and stressful. And for some reason I wanna say someone also told me high school was the best time of my life, and that I would miss it. But so far college is so much easier than the rest of my life has been, and I'm finally realizing how miserable high school made me and the extent of permanent psychological damage is caused me. In other words, Dear High School, having a great time, don't really wish you were here. Love, Emilee.

You wanna know why college students drink so much and make bad choices? Big tail tumbler cups. When all the dorm stuff comes into stores, you cannot find a regular sized cup. Adults don't want college students to binge drink but they provide the largest cups imaginable to put their alcohol in.

"Well here I am, don't know how to say this. The only thing I know is awkward silence."

I've been cleaning my room lately, yes lately as in it's taking a very long time, and it's completely overwhelming, exhausting, and surprisingly emotional. I'll just be honest and say my room hasn't really been cleaned in a very long time. So I figured since I'm about to leave for college, and I know I won't want to clean during breaks, this is probably the last time I clean my room before I clean it out permanently when I graduate college and move into my own residence or get married or both. But it's hard to purge my room of everything that's keeping me in the past and holding me captive to all the "what if that had gone differently". I'm finding stuff from freaking 7th grade, things that make me nostalgic and ashamed and induce wistful longing, all at the same time. But lately I've realized that even though I think I have my life completely planned out, that's what I thought then. And things might work out, but it might completely end up in a different direction, and I have to be completely open to that.

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For some reason today I was thinking about who owns the copyrights to songs. Since for the past few weeks I'm sure everyone's heard every single detail of Michael Jackson's life, including what his bedspread looked like (sparkly), I'm sure everyone also knows Michael owned about half of the Beatles' songs. How exactly does that happen? In middle school I was convinced I was going to be a singer and be famous, but now I realize that even if I did become famous, there's a chance that I wouldn't even own what I had written. You pour out your soul and then someone else has the right to use it in commercials or movie soundtracks. I just couldn't do it. And speaking of movie soundtracks, if I were a member of Queen I would hate everyone. Now I'm not sure who owns their music, maybe they do. But think about it. Every sports movie has either "We Will Rock You" or "We Are the Champions" in it. I think if I had written that song I would just get sick of it. Sure, maybe the first movie they liked it, but there is a point where something can be oversaturated and ruined, i.e. Journey's "Don't Stop Believing". Now I love music, but I just don't understand how anyone could be a part of the music industry without losing their souls.


P.S. JON GOSSELIN IS ENGAGED AGAIN ALREADY?!?!?! Jerk.

It's been awhile so I figured it was time to comment on some current events, or something.

Jon and Kate are pissing me off so much. They just can't seem how to figure out how to save their marriage, but I know one thing that may possibly help: turn off the freaking cameras! I was watching it the other day and I think those kids are gonna be so pissed when they get older, because it'll be embarrassing that the whole world witnessed their parents' ridiculous behavior, and they'll get to relive the most difficult time of their lives over and over again in syndication. And hey, maybe this is crazy, but maybe Jon and Kate would get along better if they would actually spend time together. Kate, cancel the book tours, and Jon, stop bar hopping with barely legal women. TLC, IT'S TIME TO CANCEL!!

Chris Brown and Rihanna. I gotta be honest, I liked him better after he hit her. Because she's annoying is a good enough reason, but if the rumors are true and she did give him an incurable STD, then yeah, she deserved it. I'm sure that sounds horrible, but I'm sorry, if you give me an STD, you're getting hit. So I hear they're back together now. That's a mistake. Can't wait to see how that plays out.

I love that Adam Lambert felt like he needed to announce that he's gay, like it was news to anyone. Of course, it was typical that he waited until he lost, since a public declaration might have taken away from his votes on such a controversial subject. So since he wasn't getting winners publicity, since he was a loser, not a winner, he put the attention on him by making the announcement. Sort of reminded me of Katherine McPhee going public with her eating disorder after she lost. Who's Katherine McPhee you say? Exactly, that's the good news. After awhile, no one will most likely hear about them anymore because after the media frenzy that is American Idol, their career after that is pretty anticlimactic. Thank God.

It's Over!

"I'm not gonna cry. Not one sad or happy tear. I've been waiting my whole life, I'm gonna fly right outta here."
-Corey Smith

Graduated high school, got a job at a daycare I start training for Tuesday, and in August I'll be in college. It's just like all of a sudden, I'm a freaking adult. And it's pretty weird. It's what I've been waiting for, but I'm not sure if I'm ready. Don't get me wrong, I'm more than ready to be out of high school. There wasn't one day during the entire thing where I felt like I actually belonged in high school. It's just the whole adult thing freaking me out.